Dear Ed,
I wish you were still here with us so I could tell you just how much you meant to me. To this day, I’ve always seen you as a superhero in gym clothes. When I saw the link to your obituary in my notifications, I refused to believe it at first. You were the strongest person I knew, and I guess I just assumed you’d live forever—or at the very least, well beyond your late 50s. I don’t use Facebook much these days, but now I regret not checking it more often. If I had, I might have learned about your health issues sooner and made time to see you one last time to tell you all of this.
I first met you when I was 14 years old, at a very impressionable time in my life, and the impact you had on me is something I still carry with me 22 years later. Although I only trained under you until I was 17, you were one of the biggest positive influences in my life. During my teens, I was trying to navigate the transition from childhood to adulthood, and being raised by a single mother, you were the closest thing I had to a father figure. I have so many memories of training with you at Strength, Fitness, and Speed that I will cherish forever. As much as I value the fitness training, our conversations and your guidance meant a thousand times more. Even after I stopped playing football and my mother could no longer afford our training sessions, I carried your positive voice with me everywhere I went.
I have a distinct memory of training with you a few times in my mid-20s, convincing myself I wanted to give semi-pro football a try. But looking back on it, I realize it wasn’t just about the fitness training—it was about missing our conversations and having your positive influence in my life again.
Although one of the last messages I sent you on Facebook was about my current fitness progress, I never got to tell you that it was your voice and motivation that pushed me to take care of my health and lose the weight I put on when I moved to Texas. I wish you knew that when I excitedly messaged you to tell you I lost 50 pounds, you were the first person I wanted to share it with. In our last conversation, I sent you a photo of the Strength, Fitness, and Speed shirt you gifted me 20 years ago. Even though every other shirt in my wardrobe has changed, it’s the one shirt I’ve held onto and refused to let go of.
I say all of this to truly express just how grateful and privileged I was to have you in my life. Of the few people who have had a positive impact on me, you were by far the most impactful. To this day, I carry your voice with me every time I work out. It’s almost like I can hear you pushing me to never give up. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for everything you did for me. You were one of the greatest people I’ve ever met and will forever be a legend in my eyes.